Aaron struggled to find the words to express how amazing it felt, to finally push aside his worries and just give in to the feelings that he had developed for Jethro over the years. That first thrust, as soon as he felt Jethro enter him, he paused. He didn't freeze, and he didn't panic. He simply paused for several moments, to get used to the feeling of being with another man. Of being with another person, really. Haley had been his last romantic partner. He'd actually thought that his feelings and sexual desire had died when his ex wife had died. But that wasn't true, and it was making itself known though the way it expressed his feelings and sexual desire to Jethro. After a few minutes of letting both of them adjust, his usual smile came to his lips and he happily kept his eyes on Jethro's. "I've never felt this way before. This wonderful before." He admitted, and though he didn't mention Haley by name, it was implied that he hadn't felt this kind of emotion and love with her. Sure, he had loved Haley. There was no doubt about it. But, if he were honest, it had always felt like something was missing. And now, being here with Jethro, it felt like that missing thing had finally been found. A little time passed, as they continued to move against each other, with him thrusting his hips back, and forward, teasingly against the other man. But now that some time had passed and he was used to it he said, "Jethro, you don't need to hold back any longer. I can take it, promise." As he spoke, one of his hands moved to trace all over Jethro's body, as he waited for the other man to take him at his word. He was ready for them to know each other's bodies. All of it. And he was ready for the pace to pick up and for them to be themselves, now that the rough part was over. "Just let go." The words left his lips, and he prepared himself for Jethro to let loose, just like he wanted. Just like they both wanted. He was glad they had taken this chance on each other. _______________________ Abby watched as Tony paced, and she debated what to say to him. She wanted to comfort him, but she also knew that he needed to be told the truth. After she took a few moments and figured out what to say, she did. "I won't say that what Ziva did was right. It wasn't. It was the complete wrong thing to do. But I also won't lie and tell you that it was all her choice. Right after Ziva left, I went to Gibbs and talked to him. He told me, honestly, that Vance had had no choice and had to send Ziva back to Israel, back to Eli." "If he hadn't agreed, then Eli would've sent people to get Ziva, and he'd have taken her forcefully against her will, instead of just having her come, against her will but on her own two feet. There would've been a fight, we probably would've lost people. And Ziva knows that. She knows that none of us would've watched her go against her will and not fought back. She didn't want it to come to a fight. She didn't want to cause more loss for any of us. As for Kort and the loss of your daughter, I'm sorry. It's not enough and it'll never be enough." "But, it's true, and it's real, and I need you to know it. I also think that I need to remind you of something. No matter how angry you are at her right now, Ziva's a good person. And good people screw up. Sometimes really badly. We've all done it. Ziva's not the exception. This is a big thing, something that will never go away. But you can choose how you respond. She made a choice, and now she has to live with the consequences of it. She has to live with knowing that she hurt you. She has to live with knowing that her daughter's dead." "She has to live with the guilt and the pain of blaming herself for everything that happened. I know that you're hurt, angry, sad, and all kinds of other things. But there's something that you need to know. Hurting Ziva and lashing out at her, isn't going to make you feel better. It's only going to make you more miserable in the end. As to why people leave, it's not about you. It's about them, and their issues. Their inability to see such an amazing person before them. I'm not excusing anyone. I'm simply trying to give you another prospective." "Sometimes we do things that hurt the people we love, to protect them from an even worse pain. And sometimes, we do it to protect them from ourselves. I can't give you any answers to why people in your life have left, Tony. The only thing that I can say with 100% certainty, is that you're not going to lose me, no matter what. You're stuck with me in your life, whether you like it or not. I don't care if you try to kick me out of your life, or even if you ever move. You're stuck with me. We're family, Tony. And if there's one thing I know about family, it's that they're the best and worst at hurting you and loving you. It's hard, but you have to accept that some bad goes along with the good, or you will never truly be happy. And I want you to be happy."